Please try to trust yourself. you deserve better. As a teacher, I must have heard hundreds of times, "You made me smart." Wrong. Someone else made those students FEEL dumb and untalented. Whoever chose to make you feel untalented, don't let the bullies win. My grandmother did that to both Mom and my aunt. Mom was in her 60's before I was able to persuade her to overcome my abusive grandmother's harm. It turned out that she was very talented.